Losing a part of me

Author: Mitch Garvis

  • Day 980

    I was doing well yesterday… and then I had to wait for my prescription at the Shoppers Drug Mart. I do not know what possessed me to buy a bag of chips and a bag of dried mango. I have to get a hold of myself!

    My knee has been hurting the last couple of days and I decided that I would proactively start taking the meds that healed it up a couple of months ago. That required a trip to the pharmacy. It is feeling much better this morning – not perfect, but definitely improvement.

    I did not get a great night sleep last night, but it was better than it has been in several nights. Around midnight I heard Princess Sophie asking to come into the bed and my first instinct was to get up and finally take the sleeping pill that I have been trying to not take. It took me a minute to realize that I had actually been sleeping! It was the first time since last week that I was able to sleep before midnight. Woohoo!

    Have a great day folks!

  • Day 979

    Today my food intake was better than it has been… but I still need to get a hold of myself. I hope that this weight gain deluge is either over or at least nearly so.

  • Day 978

    I did better yesterday than the day before… but I am still slipping. I know that if I could finally get a decent night’s sleep then I might have the energy to get through the day without falling off the program. That decent night was not last night. 

  • Day 977

    I ate better yesterday than I had been the previous few days, and I expected to see good results on the bathroom scale this morning. No dice. KMN. Happy Monday.

  • Day 976

    I have to get back on track. This is ridiculous. Hopefully the next two weeks of teaching will help.

  • Day 975

    I fell off the program yesterday. I did not think I did that badly… until I stepped onto the bathroom scale this morning. I might want to hang myself, but instead I am going to go for a long walk and jog to try to get back on track.

    Aside from gaining an astonishing and unheard of 6.2 lbs. from yesterday morning, I slept terribly (sleep score: 62), my Body Battery did not exceed 49, and I feel like garbage. That does not change the fact that I need to pull myself up by my bootstraps and get back on track.

    The hourly weather forecast predicts rain from 12-1pm and then from 5-6pm, and so I plan to go out for my walk between those hours. I will start with a jog and will see if I can go farther than the 1km which has been my jogging limit these last few months. Even if I can up it to 1.25km I will consider it a success.

    In the meantime, I also have some work to do to prepare for the class I am delivering Monday, so I will make sure that gets done before I head out for my jog.

    Have a great day folks!

  • Day 974

    I went for another good walk yesterday that began with a 1km jog. My times for both walking and jogging were not my best, but I still got 9km in. I am starting to think that it is high time for me to invest in a new pair of running shoes though… or possibly two, if I am going to keep at it.

    I nearly went off the rails on eating yesterday… fortunately I was able to rein myself in, and while I did have one more roll than I should have I still did not do terrible.

    My sleep score was up to 81, although somehow my fitness watch says I did not sleep until 12:30am. I suspect I lay in bed thinking for an hour, but I was in bed earlier than that for sure. My Body Battery only recharged to a 48, which is truly abysmal. I think today will be a day to take it easy and try to recover a bit. I might even take a nap.

    Come to think of it, I might just do that now. Have a great day folks.

  • Day 973

    I woke up this morning all excited to see significant weight loss on the bathroom scale. After my first decent bowel movement in days, I was a little disappointed that the drop was less than a pound. I took Princess Sophie for her walk, and then prepared breakfast. Before I bit in, I felt the urge, and was able to take my second decent bowel movement in days. I decided to weigh myself again, and was happy to see that from yesterday morning my weight is now down 1.2 lbs.

    I did not exactly kill it on my walk yesterday, but I did push myself for 10.4kms, averaging 9m35s/km. It was one of my most stable walks, with each split kilometre coming in between 9m26s and 9m43s. I was happy with my performance and will try to repeat it today. I have a few things on my mind, and I might not be able to get out, but we will see.

    Despite the exercise, and despite being in bed and trying to sleep by 11:30pm, I still did not have a great night sleep. My sleep score was 75m and my body battery only recharged to 41. Hopefully I will be able to do better this evening.

    The weather is going to be nice and sunny again today, so I should be able to get out there and put in a good workout… as long as I can keep my mind focused.

    Have a great day folks!

  • Day 972

    I was very down yesterday. I tried to nap unsuccessfully. I did not try to walk. I will try today. In the meantime, I also hope to get back on track with my weight loss, as I am up three pounds since the weekend. I have not moved my bowels in days and suspect a lot of the weight is backed up in there. My sleep score was a 75, and my body battery did briefly peak above 51 this morning… but that’s terrible. Hopefully I will get out for a walk today and will sleep better this evening.

    Speaking of this evening: Leslie’s son returns home to her tomorrow, so this evening will be our last cigar date for a while. At least I have that to look forward to.

    Have a great day folks!

  • Day 971

    I am hoping I can get back on track today.