Losing a part of me

My sleep score was a 71 last night, which is better than the last few nights, but still not very good. I took something for my anxiety before sleeping and maybe it helped a little. It is also possible that my headache this morning is because of that. I’m not sure, but it has been throbbing since I got back in from walking Her Floofness.

My weight is out of control… it is higher this morning than it has been since November of 2022. I hate myself for it. On the other hand, it is not the most pressing issue in my life right now. If I can stay under 310 by the time I get back from Montreal, then I will consider it a minor success.

Yes, I am driving to Montreal tomorrow. Yes, I will try to eat properly, but again… not the most pressing issue weighing on me right now. I can only do my best and then we will see. There are too many external factors weighing on me. I am hoping that after Thursday things will get a little better. In an ideal world, after my appointment on Thursday there will be a great huge relief, and I will know that the rest of my life will go according to plan. In the event that they do not let me know that day, then it will be at least a few more weeks of stress and anxiety… but at least Leslie is coming to visit next week, and I will have a few days with my best gal.

Have a great day folks!