Losing a part of me

I still feel like I have this pit in my stomach that is bringing my entire world down. Some people are telling me that it is obvious that I have gained a lot of weight, and that it is a shame that I have lost so much ground after how well I had done. How do you tell them that some days the choice is to eat… or to stop?

My sleep was a little better the last couple of nights – 75 and 79 respectively. It takes me a lot to fall asleep, but once I do get there it is usually only interrupted by my bladder.