Losing a part of me

Here we go again. I am trying this one more time… but the difference is that the holidays are behind me.

I got an email a few weeks ago – I think it was the morning after I got back from Calgary – that threw my emotions and mental state for a whirl. That is a nice way to say it. I have been a disaster, and I am trying to put the brakes on that.

I ordered a few weeks worth of meal replacements yesterday, although because of the holiday the order will not be processed until today I am sure, if not Monday. That is fine because I have 5-6 days worth of shakes left, and I will continue to be on a partial program for the time being. I think that when the products do arrive, I will stay on a partial regimen. We will see. I need to do something drastic, but it also needs to be realistic and sustainable.

Happy f&cking new year folks.