My weight-drop from yesterday rebounded this morning. Not all the way, but a lot. I know why it happened. I have to snap out of my funk. When I finally start working, I will hopefully feel a little better. Also, the cold snap is mostly behind us… which is to say that it is going back to normal cold winter temperatures rather than the extreme that we have been enjoying.
I am still not sleeping well. Grrr.
My weight dropped over two pounds from yesterday, but I am still above the terrible mark. The fact that my mental health smacked me down this week took its toll, but at least I did not let the slip go more than a day is good… but it is hard.
I did not sleep very well last night… again. I got to bed early, and I was sleeping soundly until my eyes popped open. There was a noise outside that woke me up, but since it felt like I’d slept six hours I readied myself to get out of bed. I turned over and saw the clock and realized it was 12:15am, and I’d been asleep for an hour. Groan. I did get back to sleep, but by 5:15am I had stirred several times, and I couldn’t nod off again.
I typed that out but did not press Publish. Doh!
I do not know if today is the coldest day of the year or not, but when I woke up the weather app on my phone read -18°C but feels like -30°C. It is not the coldest I have lived through, but it has been a while. Occasionally people ask me why I want to move to Texas and I tell them that I need to live with my wife, and that is the absolute beginning and the end of it. With that said, on mornings like these (when Princess Sophie walks around the building and then says ‘Dad, pick me up… you can put me down near the front door so that I can poop, but there’s no way I am walking anymore than I have to in this) I am looking forward to living 1400 miles south of here. Yes, it is still very cold down in Dallas (-5°C) but still much warmer than here.
I was truly angry at my bathroom scale this morning. I did not eat badly yesterday, and yet my weight was still up most of a pound. Argh! At least I slept better; my sleep score was 82, even though I seem to recall waking up several times and thinking that there was no way my sleep would be good. I am glad that I was able to get back to sleep each time.
It is a new day, and I am going to try to get through it with a positive attitude. I am not sure how that will go.
Have a great day.
For the first time since December 22 my weight was back below the terrible mark this morning. I was relieved, mostly because I knew that I hardly ate yesterday; in fact, after my usual breakfast I had precisely two protein bars… and that’s it. I did not starve myself; in fact, I was not overly hungry at any point during the day. I was busy, and did not feel like going shopping to pick up chicken to make a meal. I will eat today.
My sleep score was almost exactly what it was the previous night, which means I am still not sleeping very well. It is frustrating. I am hoping that tonight will be better.
I will likely spend the afternoon with a couple of buddies down in Grimsby. I have been mostly off grid these last few days and while I am not feeling any better, it would be nice to try to force myself out of my emotional rut.
Have a great day folks.
My weight did not drop below the terrible mark this morning, but it is closer than it has been since before Christmas. Another really good day and I just might hit it. More likely, if I am good for another couple of days, then I should drop below the mark.
I have been in a rut these last few days. I wouldn’t say that I am actually depressed, but I am certainly feeling the blues. I don’t know what is causing it, but it could be in part due to my finances… and of course in part because of the fact that my wife and I live in different countries and sometimes it makes me feel like I am a terrible husband. I am really hoping that I get my visa soon because this is really hurting me. I know that work is picking up – not this week but the following I teach my first class in nearly two months – and that my finances will pick up. As for the visa issue… It has been a very long time and while there are days that I am optimistic, there are also days (like the last few) when I wonder if it might never happen, and I am doomed to never live with my wife. It is disheartening and it really brings me down. How I have managed to not binge-eat all week and gain ten pounds… I just don’t know.
My sleep score last night was lousy again… or at least it was below 65. I really do need to try to get more consistent sleep. Sigh.
My knee seems to be better today. I am going to take a slow turn on the treadmill and see how it feels. I am not going to overdo it… Maybe I will walk 2-3 kilometres. We will see. Today is the last reasonably warm day before the temperatures drop to the minus double-digits for the week. That means the following:
With that said… how amazing would it be to drop back below the terrible mark in the next few days?
I am going to try to relax this weekend. I was asked to go to a Lodge event (for another lodge) but decided to stay home. We will see about this evening.
Have a great day folks.
Despite munching on some peanuts last night, I am happy that my weight this morning was down to within a couple of pounds of the terrible mark… and lower than it has been since the day before Christmas. I have spent the last few weeks in a 5.5-pound range between 302 and 307.5 and I am hoping that tomorrow I can finally drop below 302.
Another day, another bad sleep score. Sigh.
I have a lot going on but nothing that I can easily put my finger on. It’s really weird. For the moment, I am going to reboot my computer (updates require it) and make some lunch.
Have a great day!
Another day in front of the computer, another pound dropped. Yes, as I am eating less frequently it stands to reason that I am losing weight.
I have a doctor’s appointment this afternoon to get a vaccine for a disease that I am pretty sure I will never get, but it is a requirement. Okay, fine. Aside from that, I have a lot of studying to do and will be at my computer most of the day.
I slept much better last night… at least, according to my fitness watch. A sleep score of 88 and it really did feel good. My body battery only got up to a 60 which means that I likely need a couple more days of good sleep, as well as some exercise, to get that up. My knee and back are still aching, but both seem to be on the upswing. Hopefully by the end of the week I’ll be able to get onto the treadmill.
Yesterday got away from me… but not in the usual way. I sat at my computer all day, mostly studying. I got up for an hour to prepare and eat a meal in the middle of the afternoon, but that was it. I looked at my watch and it was 11:00pm. At least I know that I did not overeat and was hardly tempted to eat at all. My weight is down a bit more today, but that is not a surprise. I just wish I was sleeping better. My knee is not completely there but is mostly better. I am not trying to be a hero… I am taking my meds properly.
The cold front continues. The temperatures have been cold but bearable. The wind, on the other hand, has been quite unpleasant on the exposed parts of my body… which in this weather means only my face and ears. My hands get cold too, despite my gloves. Fortunately, I can stick them in my pocket and I’m fine. I wish I did not have to go out again today, but I do… first to a meeting, then to walk Her Floofness again. Sigh.
I had trouble falling asleep last night, but at least my sleep score was 70 and not worse. Tonight will be better… I hope.
My weight dropped again this morning, so over a two-day period it is down 4.6 lbs., which is tremendous… but it is also just regulating the ridiculous gains from the previous days. The holidays are over, and it is time to get back on track. I wish my knee were back in form so that I could actually exercise… but that will be in a day or two. I want to get my weight back below that terrible mark!
Have a great day folks!
My sleep score last night was an 85, the second highest it has been since my hip started to cause me problems. I should mention that there was one night that I did not wear my fitness watch to bed, which is odd for me, but I just forgot to put it on after I got out of the shower. In any event, I feel well rested this morning. I also feel for the first time in a week that there is marked improvement to my hip; to be clear, the improvement has nothing to do with pain medicines (although they have helped keep me somewhat sane). No, I felt real improvement before I got out of bed, which means before I took my pill. I am relieved that it seems to be on the mend. I have been extremely unhappy these last few days, even snapping at people who did not deserve it. I will apologize to them both. Now let’s hope and pray than my hip and leg continue to improve!
What has not been improving is my weight. I have gained a tremendous amount of weight this past week, partly due to stress-eating to try to relieve the pain. That never works of course, but gaining weight does. My weight this morning is a disgusting amount over the terrible mark. I need to get back on track. Hopefully the lessening of my pain will help with that. I need to get down to a reasonable weight, and that will need to start with depriving myself of certain things. Hopefully by mid-week I will be able to exercise again, but until that is the case I cannot touch another carbohydrate, starting now.
Have a great day folks!
