Losing a part of me

It is strange to wake up on my birthday and not realize it until I looked at my phone and started receiving messages. I will thank all of my friends for the kind wishes. I expect to receive far fewer wishes this year than last, owing to my culling my ‘friends’ list by about 70%. I am fine with that. Today is going to just be another ordinary day. A buddy invited me over to his place for cigars in the afternoon, but aside from that I have no plans that differ greatly from whatever I did any other day this week. Well, that is not entirely true… After I finish this journal entry, I will go to Starbucks to pick up a free coffee. I am not going to take advantage of most of the ‘birthday freebies’ out there, but I think that Leslie and I spend enough money with them for overpriced drinks that we can enjoy a free overpriced drink on each of our birthdays.

I cheated on my diet last night. It was a long and stressful evening (what with class and all) so I had to go out to help a friend with their computer after class. I stopped and bought a bag of potato chips. I should not have done that, and I paid the price. I gained a full pound over yesterday morning’s weigh-in. There are cheats that I can make exceptions for and there are cheats that I have no excuse for and should really know better. Yesterday evening’s chips fell into that second category. I feel like a failure for it… but I also know that beating myself up over it is not the answer. The answer is trying to do better today.

Have a great day folks!