I am throwing the bathroom scale out of the window. I may follow it out.
Author: Mitch Garvis
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Day 1146
I got through the day yesterday, but I made the mistake of eating a fruit in the evening. Note to self: Stop buying fruit and stop buying bread.
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Day 1145
My anxiety kept me up last night… and then woke me up early this morning. In two weeks I will have my appointment and hopefully things will go well and very hopefully that will make things a bit easier. We will see. In the meantime, this is going to be a very long week of working… and I am thrilled by that.
Have a great day folks!
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Day 1144
I don’t know how well I did yesterday… but I am doing a bit better today. So far…
I am teaching all week starting tomorrow… I have a class from 8:30-5:00, which is a very reasonable day. Monday, Wednesday, and Friday I still have my evening courses from 6:15-10:15pm, which is also reasonable… until you take the two of them together, which makes for three very long days this weekI am hoping I will be able to use the busy days to lose some weight!
Oh by the way…next week will be the same!
Have a great day, folks.
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Day 1143
I have no idea why, but I forgot to weigh myself this morning. It was not a question of hopeless despair, I just forgot. It was probably because Her Floofness greeted me outside the bathroom door and essentially said ‘Get dressed fast and let’s go now!’
I will try to be good today.
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Day 1142
I had a very difficult conversation with my wife yesterday. I think she now has a better understanding of the depth of my troubles these last few months. I hated having to put so much weight on her, but I will not lie to her.
My weight loss has been a complete and total failure these last few months, and every attempt I have made to make it better has been a failure. The fact that it is not worse is nothing more than luck. I am going to have to figure out some changes.
I woke up this morning in pain. It is not a serious pain, but it is in my foot and it is an outbreak of gout. Fortunately, and for the first time in a couple of years, I have the medicine that is meant to take ‘in the event of outbreaks’ and I took it right away. I will take it thrice daily until I am no longer in pain. I hope that is not very long.
Have a great day folks.
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Day 1140 (2)
I have been fooling myself to think that I have not been in a funk. The stress over waiting for that piece of paper to come in, and then of having to reschedule the appointment (as I wrote about recently) have masked the fact that, now that I have the paper, and now that I have been able to reschedule the appointment, the same stresses and anxieties that crippled me leading up to the original appointment (a month ago) are now once again very real. They were, and are again, debilitating. I am going to figure a way to work through them, but the bottom line is that the next three weeks will not be that different from the month of January and the first week of February.
Sigh. And through this I need to lose weight. I’ll be happy if I keep my weight steady where it is.
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Day 1140
Progress is soooo slow. A couple of ounces per day is not going to cut it when I look at my deadline in less than a week.
