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I did not make it through the day yesterday as I would have liked. I had two meal replacements, and then I made an omelette for dinner… and then I had a couple of carrots… and a bag of popcorn.

This morning was my Lodge’s monthly breakfast for men’s mental health, and knowing how badly I am doing on that front I was not going to skip it. I did eat at the restaurant, and will try to only have meal replacements for the rest of the day. If I falter, then I do so with the knowledge that I have precisely two carrots and one bag of popcorn left in the house.

I saw my doctor yesterday and was disgusted with the numbers I got… but I already knew that I would be. I had decided before going into the appointment that I would be rebooting my program efforts today… AGAIN.

I must sound like a broken record, but let’s try this one more time.

In one day it was great… but not overall.

I am still trying to get on track… I am not there yet.

True to my experience, I have had extremely low energy today. I got a good night sleep, but I have not been able to get anything accomplished. I have a couple of appointments this evening so I will have to get up and go. Wow… and I am not even entirely on the program yet.

I did not post for the last couple of days. I do not feel like writing now, but I decided to drop my streak (at 1,360 days) and start fresh. Today is Kinda Day 1. I am not fully on the program, but I am mostly on it. Tomorrow morning I will finish the last of my eggs, and I will be completely on it as of Saturday. Wish me luck… my last attempt over the summer was doing great… until the company had no product for two months and I fell way off the wagon.

Oops

Yesterday was a hard day. It has been two years since the October 7 massacre and it hurts every day… but the anniversary was especially hard.

Today is the second anniversary of one of the most horrific days of my life. Bring the hostages home now!