Losing a part of me

I was afraid this was going to happen. I had my meal replacement shake at lunchtime as I was planning to, and I have been drinking water. Right after lunch I realized I had a headache so I took a couple of Aspirin. They didn’t help. Why? My headache – and now my sluggishness – are my body telling me that I am hungry. I have two hours to go until the end of class and I will be able to rest, but I am not happy with how I am feeling. I hope this only lasts a couple of days at most because I really need to spend the weekend studying for my CISSP exam which is Tuesday, and I need to be able to focus on it with zero distractions. In the meantime I am sticking to the plan… I will have another meal replacement after class, and another one some time during the evening, and that will be it… aside from a lot of water.

I was planning on eating my last three eggs tomorrow morning for breakfast (as I did this morning) but I think I am going to give them to a neighbour. I want to get on the program completely… although I suspect there will be an exception for alcoholic beverages.

I am feeling like shit but that doesn’t matter… I need to lose the weight. I need to get back on track. I need to stop hating myself.