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  • Day 1032

    The bathroom scale can go pound rocks this morning. There is no reason that I can think of why my weight should have been up by two pounds from yesterday. Argh!

    I did a great deal of studying yesterday, and I am confident that I will pass the certification exam I have scheduled for Thursday. In fact, I might try to schedule it for earlier in the week. We’ll see if I can.

    Today was the second day on my full meds, and I am hoping that my knee will not be in pain this week so that I can get some walking in.

    My plans for today are breakfast with a friend, then a cigar with another friend. Later in the afternoon I hope to see my kids and deliver the laptop that I have been preparing for my younger. I will put it in the car so that if I can, I will go straight from Grimsby.

    Have a great day.

  • Day 1031

    Okay… yesterday I was disappointed that I had gained nearly two pounds from the previous day. It was actually a bit over 1.5 lbs., but it is what it is. This morning, I had shed exactly what I had gained. I was relieved that the gain was not permanent. Hopefully I will stay on track today.

    It is already 6:00pm on Saturday and I have had a very productive day. I did several hours of billable work, which will help pay my own bills. Princess Sophie spent several hours with her boyfriend Charlie at the neighbour’s house, and she is now back home resting. I picked up my meds yesterday, and this morning was the first day that I took all three of my pills. Hopefully by tomorrow I will be able to get a good walk in.

    Have a great day folks!

  • Day 1030

    My weight was not up to what it was at a couple of days ago, but I gained back nearly two of the three pounds I had lost yesterday. Boo.

    My sleep score from last night was 73… much better than the previous night, and about on a par of what it normally is. I’d like to get it up above 80 on a regular basis, but I had a meeting to help a friend with his computer at midnight, and I wouldn’t think any night that I get into bed after 2am it would be much better than what it was.

    I was wrong, I did not have the time to go to the pharmacy yesterday. My day got much busier than I had expected. I will go today.

    Have a great day folks!

  • Day 1029

    I was glad to see that my weight dropped to almost what it was at Monday morning – that is, before the emotional miserable stress-eating day – despite my inability to move my bowels again this morning. I did move them successfully yesterday mid-morning, so at least there’s that. I hate being even this smidgen above the terrible mark, and hope that in a day or two I will be able to get back below it. I wish I could be more active. More on that in a few minutes.

    I slept horribly last night. I could not fall asleep until after 3:15am, and I still roused out of bed around the same time as usual. As a result I am feeling sluggish, but I will survive.

    My knee has still been bothering me, but I got a notice from the pharmacy that my meds have been refilled, so I will go to pick them up today. Hopefully after a few days on that med I will be able to get active again. I have some work to do on a computer I am preparing for my son the younger, and then I am meeting a couple of people before Lodge, so it will be a pretty busy day. I am not worried; I will get through it all.

    Have a great day folks!

  • Day 1028

    Yes, I messed up yesterday. I wrote a three-word post, and yet I still messed up. How? I got the day number wrong. I fixed that this morning.

    My weight is way up. A couple of days ago I had an extremely emotional time of it, and I indulged. I knew I would pay for it. I bought (and ate) a box of breakfast cereal. I ate better yesterday, but because I did not weigh myself yesterday, I do not know if I lost weight from then.

    Why didn’t I weigh myself? It was one of those overnight classes. I was supposed to go to bed early Monday so I could wake up at midnight and teach from 1am until noon. The problem was that I was never able to fall asleep, so I finally got out of bed and readied myself for class early. I did not bother, but I knew I was heavier.

    I somehow made it through my class, and when it was over I took Her Floofness for a walk and then had a light meal, and then went to bed. I slept for 2-3 hours, and while I needed more, I knew I could not do it lest I wake up at midnight. I stayed awake until a reasonable hour, and then I fell asleep and had a wonderful night’s rest. Sleep score? Ninety-one! Yes, I slept very well.

    Today will be a more relaxing day. I am likely going to see a friend, and then will come home in time for dinner. We’ll see.

    Have a great day folks!

  • Day 1027

    Will write tomorrow.

  • Day 1026

    Remembrance Day is always one of those days that is a bit difficult for me. As I walked Her Floofness this morning, a woman with her young daughter engaged me in conversation. How’s the weather, cute pup, and so on. She then said to me ‘I see you are wearing a poppy too. Happy Remembrance Day!’ I said to her that no, it is not a happy day, but a solemn one. As she fumbled with a sincere apology I recovered quickly and told her that she had nothing to apologize for, and that our language does not have a phrase that we use to greet each other with on these solemn days. On any other day I might have just smiled and nodded, but I have trouble with that phrase… to a soldier it is like saying ‘Enjoy the funeral!’… it’s just wrong.

    My knee is still in agony, but I think it is getting a bit better… slowly. The anti-inflammatories that I am taking are helping and while I wish I could boost the dosage, I have to be careful to not do so. They can damage other parts of my body, and I do not want to do that. I have asked my pharmacy to send my doctor’s office a request to refill a prescription for the second gout medication that I sometimes take. I will follow up on that today.

    My weight was down this morning, and I am once again at the horrible mark… 300 lbs. even. I will try to eat properly again today so that in the next day or two I will once again drop under it. I slept well – my sleep score was a very respectable 85, which is better than most nights for me. I have also moved my bowels twice today – once earlier, and once just now as I paused to write this entry. How my body can go three days without is a mystery to me. I think I am going to make sure I take fibre every day for a while.

    The next twenty-four hours will be ‘one of those days.’ I am teaching a class for Germany again, which means I’ll be working from 1am-12pm. Fortunately it is only a one-day (night?) class, so while I will be a bit off, I should not experience the disorientation and jetlag I had last time. I need the work… I want the work! I will take it when I can get it

    Autumn is well and truly here. The leaves are on the ground, and I am wearing a sweater and my vest to take Her Floofness on her walks. While it was rainy yesterday, today is just damp but dry. Pretty soon the winter will be upon us, and I know our weather will get worse before it gets better. I will try to keep my attitude positive… some days it is harder than others.

    Have a great day folks!

  • Day 1025

    I messed up the numbers yesterday and posted my second Day 1023 in a row. I have gone back and corrected that.

    My weight is up again this morning, and it is above that terrible mark. I am beginning to think that there is no way for me to stay below it without intense exercise. No matter what pain I may be in, this afternoon after I have lunch with my son I will be brushing off the old treadmill. It is chilly and rainy outside today, and I think an indoor workout is the right way to go.

    My knee has been in pain all week and I am almost angry because I take meds for gout every day… so how can gout keep flaring up? It is not as if my diet is so rich that it should be an issue… but it is. Thanks Dad… this is the genetic legacy I get from you. At least I also have the low blood pressure, which means I should live a longer life… the downside is that I will spend a lot of it in discomfort.

    Have a great day folks!

  • Day 1024

    It is now 6:30pm and I have had a long and busy day… and it’s not over just yet. I am going to relax and try to rest up. I know, I promised I’d talk about a few things yesterday but will put them off until tomorrow. In the meantime: Day 3 without movement, and my weight is up but negligibly.

    See you tomorrow folks!

  • Day 1023

    It was a busy day and I didn’t have time to write. I’m pissed about my weight. Tomorrow I’ll talk about my knee which is bothering me again the last few day.