Losing a part of me

I guess I am back to not having consistent daily bowel movements and that is going to annoy me every day that my weight does not drop. Fortunately this morning it did drop… I lost a full pound over yesterday which puts me back on track. I told Leslie yesterday that I was worried that I might not lose weight this morning because I did cheat yesterday… I made a tuna salad for myself in the mid-afternoon.

I think part of what I did wrong yesterday was waiting so long to prepare my first meal replacement. I probably finished breakfast around 8:30am, and then did not prepare it until after 2:00pm. By that time it is possible that my hunger was too far gone, and the 225 calories of liquid did not sate me. It could have been worse; a can of tuna is about 155 calories, plus maybe 100 more from the mayonnaise and onion. That is not the point. I am trying to get back on track with my partial program, and part of that is eating only breakfast. I have to prove to myself that I have the self-control to do that. I will endeavour to do better today. So far, I am on track – it is now 12:40pm; following my normal breakfast I worked for a few hours and then prepared my lunchtime meal replacement at 12:15… that is to say, around lunchtime! If I can stay disciplined, then I will have another meal replacement before I start my class at 5:30pm, and then another one as soon as my class is over.

I mentioned that I am back on a partial program. I spoke the other day about getting back onto the full program. I am not sure how well that is going to go; I am going to spend a week or two on the partial program (an omelette for breakfast, then meal replacements only) and see how that goes. If I can continue to lose weight like that then I do not think I will need the extreme program. If I cannot continue to lose weight then I will have to reexamine that decision in a week or two, and I might have to do it.

I had my final appointment with my therapist yesterday. That is not to say that I am never going to go back into therapy, only that I think I have accomplished the goals that I set out for myself at the outset. Whether that is because of the medications or effort or a combination of both, I am happy with the progress that I have made. My therapist agreed, and our last session was spent mostly reviewing my progress. At the end of the session I felt even more confident that I made the right decision.

I don’t have the time to walk or jog today, but I do consider it a productive day. I am teaching this evening so I will start preparing after my next meeting. It is a beautiful day out so I might do that preparation on the balcony with a cigar. We’ll see! As long as I am able to stick to the meal program and not fall off (as I have every day so far) then I will consider it a successful day.

Have a great day folks!