Category: Depression
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Day 1202
Whatever else I could say about myself today, well rested is not on the list. I got a couple of hours of sleep yesterday afternoon, and then about ninety minutes of sleep last night. I am hoping that after today’s class I will be able to get a few hours… not having the evening class…
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Day 1201
I have four hours left before I can sleep… or more likely four more hours before I can take Princess Sophie for her walk; after that, I can drop her off with my neighbour, and then I can get some sleep. I am exhausted and eagerly looking forward to that! I was hoping to get…
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Day 1200
Doing no better today, but this afternoon I have to put a smile on to go see some friends. I have a good excuse to beg out early – I have to start teaching at 1am which means I need to get some sleep. Life sucks.
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Day 1199
Someone asked me yesterday morning what my plans were for today and I had to confess that I did not have anything. I walked Princess Sophie in the morning, and of course I will walk her again in the evening… but that’s about it. I was originally supposed to spend the afternoon with a friend,…
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Day 1198
Is it any surprise that yesterday brought more disappointing news? At this point, is there any other kind?
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Day 1197
Today is Yom Ha’Aztzmaut, the Israeli Day of Independence. I have a lot to do, mostly in preparation for the most useless exam I have to take tomorrow. It is a certification exam for the class that I am teaching next week, and it earns you a certification that I earned nearly six years ago…
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Day 1189
I am so happy that I can help so many other people. I just wish I could help myself. I need to find a way out of this chasm but I do not see any escape.
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Day 1187
For the first time in years my rage erupted yesterday. I have been doing everything I can to keep myself in check, and while I have not always made the right decision, I have nevertheless been able to remain composed. Yesterday afternoon, shortly after I pressed publish on my very short journal entry, I got…
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Day 1186
I am still where I was yesterday. Emotionally distraught. I am a real mess. I am going to see some friends in Grimsby for dinner and to break my Passover after sundown. I just wish…
Losing a part of me 