Category: Despair
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Day 1170
Yesterday was hard for a few reasons, but I still managed to make slight progress with my weight this morning, dropping another few ounces according to the bathroom scale. My stress and anxiety are nearly crippling me right now but I have to get through. I have too many things I need to do and…
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Day 1142
I had a very difficult conversation with my wife yesterday. I think she now has a better understanding of the depth of my troubles these last few months. I hated having to put so much weight on her, but I will not lie to her. My weight loss has been a complete and total failure…
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Day 1140
Progress is soooo slow. A couple of ounces per day is not going to cut it when I look at my deadline in less than a week.
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Day 1139
My weight was down this morning, but not as much as it might have been had I been able to successfully move my bowels before breakfast. When I finally did, I was certain that my weight might have dropped a bit more significantly. As it stands, I have another 8 lbs. to lose to get…
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Day 1138
I am pissed off that my weight is now dropping in increments of .2 lb. rather than anything substantial. Now that I have a looming deadline – that sucks. I am not focusing on this today because I have a lot of work to catch up on. Have a great day!
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Day 1137
I did 1.5km on the treadmill yesterday, but despite that I did not hit my steps goal. Today is my day to get back on track. I woke up with a headache, but it was not bad enough to take a pill. I am reconsidering that decision a few hours later. I did sleep pretty…
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Day 1134
I am down three pounds in the last couple of days, and if I can find the energy to not be sick today, I will try to dust off the treadmill. I slept terribly last night though and am going to go back to bed for a little while. To be clear: Yes, my weight…
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Day 1132
The bathroom scale has been wonky these last couple of days, and that is not a good sign. I weigh less than I did yesterday, but still over 310 lbs. which absolutely disgusts me. I ate very poorly yesterday… until around 2pm. After that I did much better. Today is my first day of getting…
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Day 1131
Desperate times… I am throwing out a lot of crap today. I am cutting down my portions, and I am getting onto the treadmill.
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Day 1129
Stress. Anxiety. Sadness. I have to get past this all. Tomorrow I am going to get onto the treadmill and am going to try to walk or jog my blues away. Today I will be out and about helping friends.
Losing a part of me 