Category: Despair
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Day 1194
Today is election day in Canada, and I plan to go vote right after my daytime class, hoping that I will get through it and home in time for my nighttime class. It is going to be tight if the lines are long, but I have to make my voice heard. Other than that, I…
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Day 1191
I am feeling no more cheerier or positive today than I have been; this despite a lot of positive things going on in my life. It is the negative stuff that are so much stronger and harder to cope with. I am going to have to find a way. My weight seems to be normalizing,…
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Day 1189
I am so happy that I can help so many other people. I just wish I could help myself. I need to find a way out of this chasm but I do not see any escape.
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Day 1188
I am feeling no better than I did yesterday. I have to figure out a way to get out of this rut. No, rut is not the right term. It is a chasm.
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Day 1187
For the first time in years my rage erupted yesterday. I have been doing everything I can to keep myself in check, and while I have not always made the right decision, I have nevertheless been able to remain composed. Yesterday afternoon, shortly after I pressed publish on my very short journal entry, I got…
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Day 1185
My day today will be consumed with helping my buddy. I can’t do anything else. I have been thinking these last few days about stopping my daily blogging… at least for now. I am not sure what I am going to do. I need to get right with myself. It is not an easy task.
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Day 1184
Today has been a long day for me… but a longer day for a good friend, who I am going to spend some time with this evening. Talk tomorrow.
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Day 1182
My emotions are not getting any better. I am trying to get through the days, but it is hard. Yesterday I was able to focus on work which was good. Hopefully today will be the same. All I ate yesterday after breakfast was soup, but my weight was up this morning. I think the soup…
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Day 1180
It did not occur to me until later that I forgot to weigh myself this morning. That is too bad, as I think I did pretty well yesterday. Well, if I continue that trend today, then I will see a great improvement tomorrow over yesterday. The soup came out wonderfully. Unfortunately, that, along with everything…
Losing a part of me 