Category: Depression
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Day 658
Things are not getting better; it is quite the opposite in fact. I will continue to push through and try to get back on track, but the emotional turmoil of my life is absolutely crushing. I cannot focus on my diet right now. The fact that I am getting through my classes without breaking down…
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Day 657
My weight on the bathroom scale is still under 250 lbs… but just barely. I really need to get a handle on myself. I do not want to lose the amazing progress I have made because of the terrible trying and emotional times I am going through. I will do much better today. I have…
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Day 654
Life is not good. I will continue to pray that I can make the changes that I need to. More tomorrow. Flying back to Canada now. Have a great day folks.
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Day 626
Yesterday did not go as planned. I failed. I was fine all day but in the evening… it all went wrong. By ‘It’ of course I mean me. My weight was up this morning and I deserve nothing else. I will try to do better today. Some things are just so hard to deal with.…
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Maybe Today is Just a Hard Day
**I am writing this entry for many reasons, but part of it is because it might be easy for most of my readers to think that I am always upbeat, even when I am failing. I try to maintain a positive mindset. Today I am failing, but that is okay… tomorrow will be better. It…
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Day 323
The last few days have been among the hardest emotionally in recent memory. I am hoping that today I will start to feel a little better. As I keep saying to myself (and to a couple of others), I will continue to put one foot in front of the other. There is really no other…
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Day 322
It was touching when a friend reached out yesterday to see if I was okay. She mentioned that she rarely visits my blog, but for some reason she did yesterday. She was worried about me. I have to be honest, I am worried about me too. This has been a very busy morning, starting at…
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Day 321
I have been having a very difficult time of it of late. I have glossed over a lot of it, not wanting to share the depths of my despair, but the last few days it has been harder to hide. I walked out of the house yesterday on my way to Eduardo’s, and as I…
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Day 320
My emotions are getting worse. As I try to do better, things keep getting harder for me. This includes but is not limited to my weight loss. It is harder for me to put on a brave and happy face for my friends, and I think they are starting to worry. They cannot help me,…
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Day 195
Princess Sophie is getting better, but slowly. Last night she asked to go outside again at 2:30am, and so I had another night of interrupted sleep. Nevertheless, I woke up mostly refreshed, and am happy the day is underway. For the sixth consecutive day I was pleased by the numbers on the bathroom scale, and…
Losing a part of me 