Category: Anxiety
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Day 1132
The bathroom scale has been wonky these last couple of days, and that is not a good sign. I weigh less than I did yesterday, but still over 310 lbs. which absolutely disgusts me. I ate very poorly yesterday… until around 2pm. After that I did much better. Today is my first day of getting…
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Day 1130
Yesterday should have been a day of positive emotions. I spent much of it helping others, which is good for the soul. I spent a lot of time forgetting my issues, and the day would have been perfect… had I not dropped my phone in someone’s car and had to spend 10 hours tracking it…
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Day 1129
Stress. Anxiety. Sadness. I have to get past this all. Tomorrow I am going to get onto the treadmill and am going to try to walk or jog my blues away. Today I will be out and about helping friends.
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Day 1127
I did not eat very well yesterday, and I paid for it. Yes, I woke up at a ridiculously early hour, and yes I had breakfast before the sun was up… but I also took the opportunity to clean out (read: eat) all of the leftovers from the fridge. At least I slept well last…
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Day 1126
I am tired. It has been a long day which was supposed to begin with a 3:00am alarm to drive Leslie to the airport… but my eyes popped open at 2:00am and were not shutting. She is home safe… although there is an issue with her luggage which I will not address here. This afternoon…
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Day 1125
I took Leslie for breakfast yesterday as planned. I ordered the French Toast with strawberries and bananas and drizzled it with maple syrup. It was delicious! Before driving her to the airport we then went to the pub, and I enjoyed a plate of fish and chips. I was tempted to change that up but…
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Day 1122
I was completely shocked yesterday morning by the 2.2 lbs. gain over the previous day. It was the first time in a very long time that my weight was over 310, and I hated myself for it. I knew the reasons and I made the excuses, but I was devastated. This morning, as I prepared…
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Day 1119
My cold keeps getting worse. I was really hoping that yesterday would have been the worst of it, but no such luck. I will spend most of the day resting, and then will wake up to shower, then teach for four hours before heading to the airport. There will be plenty of fluids and vitamins…
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Day 1118
My head cold is worse today than it was yesterday. At least I dropped a pound. I am heading to see a friend who might be able to help me with one of my most pressing stressors right now. I am hoping it works. While I have my day to get through and I’ll do…
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Day 1117
I wonder if there is a better indication of how difficult weight loss is than the fact that over the past 1,117 days my weight started at 395, dropped down to under 240, and is back up hovering above 300. I want to get back down there, but man is it a challenge. With all…
Losing a part of me 