Category: Cheating
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Day 549
I did pretty well yesterday, and the bathroom scale rewarded me this morning with a 1.2 lb. drop from yesterday. With that said, I plan to be bad today (at least for lunch) and expect to give most of it back tomorrow. Leslie and I decided that we are going to share a Chicago deep-dish…
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Day 546
I do not often look at my document statistics, so I was surprised when I glanced at the bottom-left corner of my journal yesterday and saw that I am fast approaching 500,000 words. It is by far the longest document I have ever written. I have essentially written eighty percent of Tolstoy’s War and Peace.…
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Day 545
I did end up sitting in the pool for a couple of hours yesterday afternoon. It made the mercurial heat (109° Fahrenheit) quite palatable. My only mistake was not bringing a large bottle of water down with me. By the time I got out of the pool a little before 3:00pm I was drained of…
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Day 535
I knew yesterday was going to be hard. I am indeed over 270 lbs. this morning. It is now time for me to redouble my efforts and get my ass in gear. No more cheating!
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Day 534
I fell off the deep end again yesterday and I have to get a handle on myself. I have to stop going on these evening binges. Why can’t I just eat my dinner, and then be satisfied? This struggle is real, and I have to figure out a way to stop sliding backwards. I have…
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Day 532
It is strange to wake up on my birthday and not realize it until I looked at my phone and started receiving messages. I will thank all of my friends for the kind wishes. I expect to receive far fewer wishes this year than last, owing to my culling my ‘friends’ list by about 70%.…
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Day 522
The last few days were hard for me. Today will be a little better, and tomorrow better yet. That is the only thing I can aspire to. I want to get back onto the wagon. I am happy that I did not gain weight during Leslie’s two-week visit, but I do feel that I was…
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Day 520
Yesterday went about as planned, and I regret nothing. The rich creamy mushroom pasta I enjoyed for dinner was delicious; so was the chocolate tartuffo I had for desert. Today we are having toasted challah for breakfast before I go to the café to pick up our morning drinks. We will meet my sons for…
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Day 519
We are out and about early and I wanted to leave a placeholder in case I forgot. I cheated way too much yesterday and I paid for it. Will do better. — It is now late afternoon and two of our three social engagements are behind us, with one more to go. All of them…
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Day 514
As Leslie and I sit in the garden oasis of our bed and breakfast enjoying our cigars and lattés I am in bliss and do not want this weekend to come to an end. Alas, dark becomes day and the day turns to night. It has been exactly as planned with no stress, anxiety, or…
Losing a part of me 