Category: Anxiety
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Day 1105
My weight is not cooperating, but it seldom does when I am under the weather. At least I got a good night sleep at last. I woke up in the middle of the night once or twice and was afraid I would not be able to fall back asleep, but I did. Here’s hoping that…
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Day 1096
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) sucks. Yesterday was the first day of the cease fire in Gaza, and the first innocent hostages were traded for 30x their numbers in violent terrorist murdering scum. We do everything we have to in order to bring our people home… at almost any cost. That was what was mostly…
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Day 1093
I had a busy day and nearly forgot to post. Here I am. I started the day upset because I ate well yesterday but still gained a pound this morning. I have to remember… it’s the trend and not points on a graph.
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Day 1081
My sleep score last night was an 85, the second highest it has been since my hip started to cause me problems. I should mention that there was one night that I did not wear my fitness watch to bed, which is odd for me, but I just forgot to put it on after I…
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Day 1075
I am still trying to get back on track. I will get there, but for now I am about where I have been for the last six months… trying to get back down below that terrible mark. Sigh. The stresses of my life right now are almost beyond my limits, but I will endure. It…
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Day 1069
My wife had very good advice for me today. She told me that I am stressing so much because of the holidays, and it might not be a bad idea to take a break from my diet (which has not been working anyways) until after New Years. That is not to say that I should…
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Day 1066
The last couple of days I have not been doing very well, but I am trying to pick myself up and get back on track. It is hard… especially around the holidays. I wish I was with my wife. She and I got amazing news this week, but that is for the future, and we…
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Day 1059
It was a much earlier morning than I would usually experience on a Saturday. I got up to pee at 5:30am and could not fall back asleep. I had a couple of things on my mind, one of which was the welfare of a friend who is quite elderly who I usually get a response…
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Day 1052
I had a very difficult day yesterday. I broke down and bought chicken and vegetables and ate a late lunch (or early dinner). To be clear, I do not believe that I overate. I am also proud of myself that despite my intense desire to do so, I did not buy any bread. As bad…
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Day 930
Thank G-d my weight dropped below that horrible number this morning. I will eat as I did yesterday, which is to say that I will have lunch, and then in the evening I will have a meal replacement. My knee is feeling somewhat better than it was a couple of days ago. I am still…
Losing a part of me 