Category: Anxiety
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Day 1155
I briefly considered reweighing myself after I had a second (and more productive) bowel movement after Princess Sophie and I came in from our walk. I decided not to simply because I had a large glass of water, and I am trying to stay focused on the downward trend and not the individual plots on…
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Day 1153
The long day yesterday was good for me, despite the fact that my weight was up this morning. There was a little more pasta and sauce left over than I thought so I ended up having some for lunch and for dinner. I will be more careful today. When I get off of work this…
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Day 1151
One habit I am going to try to get back into, as I embark on this ‘No Groceries’ diet, is writing my journal article first thing in the morning (after my morning rituals, washroom, dog walking, and making coffee and my meal replacement). There have been too many days when I have forgotten, and it…
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Day 1149
I am invited to an Orthodox Sabbath dinner this evening and while I am looking forward to the evening and traditions, I wish my weight was in a better place where I would not feel guilty about the foods. This morning I printed a one-month calendar that I taped to the inside of my door.…
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Day 1146
I got through the day yesterday, but I made the mistake of eating a fruit in the evening. Note to self: Stop buying fruit and stop buying bread.
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Day 1145
My anxiety kept me up last night… and then woke me up early this morning. In two weeks I will have my appointment and hopefully things will go well and very hopefully that will make things a bit easier. We will see. In the meantime, this is going to be a very long week of…
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Day 1144
I don’t know how well I did yesterday… but I am doing a bit better today. So far… I am teaching all week starting tomorrow… I have a class from 8:30-5:00, which is a very reasonable day. Monday, Wednesday, and Friday I still have my evening courses from 6:15-10:15pm, which is also reasonable… until you…
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Day 1142
I had a very difficult conversation with my wife yesterday. I think she now has a better understanding of the depth of my troubles these last few months. I hated having to put so much weight on her, but I will not lie to her. My weight loss has been a complete and total failure…
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Day 1140 (2)
I have been fooling myself to think that I have not been in a funk. The stress over waiting for that piece of paper to come in, and then of having to reschedule the appointment (as I wrote about recently) have masked the fact that, now that I have the paper, and now that I…
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Day 1139
My weight was down this morning, but not as much as it might have been had I been able to successfully move my bowels before breakfast. When I finally did, I was certain that my weight might have dropped a bit more significantly. As it stands, I have another 8 lbs. to lose to get…
Losing a part of me 