Category: Cheating
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Day 557
I was distressed that my travel day took such a bad toll on my weight this morning. I am back above 270 lbs. and to blame it all on the airplane is wrong. I let myself go last night, and I paid for it this morning. The worst part of it is that I had…
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Day 549
I did pretty well yesterday, and the bathroom scale rewarded me this morning with a 1.2 lb. drop from yesterday. With that said, I plan to be bad today (at least for lunch) and expect to give most of it back tomorrow. Leslie and I decided that we are going to share a Chicago deep-dish…
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Day 546
I do not often look at my document statistics, so I was surprised when I glanced at the bottom-left corner of my journal yesterday and saw that I am fast approaching 500,000 words. It is by far the longest document I have ever written. I have essentially written eighty percent of Tolstoy’s War and Peace.…
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Day 545
I did end up sitting in the pool for a couple of hours yesterday afternoon. It made the mercurial heat (109° Fahrenheit) quite palatable. My only mistake was not bringing a large bottle of water down with me. By the time I got out of the pool a little before 3:00pm I was drained of…
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Day 535
I knew yesterday was going to be hard. I am indeed over 270 lbs. this morning. It is now time for me to redouble my efforts and get my ass in gear. No more cheating!
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Day 534
I fell off the deep end again yesterday and I have to get a handle on myself. I have to stop going on these evening binges. Why can’t I just eat my dinner, and then be satisfied? This struggle is real, and I have to figure out a way to stop sliding backwards. I have…
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Day 532
It is strange to wake up on my birthday and not realize it until I looked at my phone and started receiving messages. I will thank all of my friends for the kind wishes. I expect to receive far fewer wishes this year than last, owing to my culling my ‘friends’ list by about 70%.…
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Day 522
The last few days were hard for me. Today will be a little better, and tomorrow better yet. That is the only thing I can aspire to. I want to get back onto the wagon. I am happy that I did not gain weight during Leslie’s two-week visit, but I do feel that I was…
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Day 520
Yesterday went about as planned, and I regret nothing. The rich creamy mushroom pasta I enjoyed for dinner was delicious; so was the chocolate tartuffo I had for desert. Today we are having toasted challah for breakfast before I go to the café to pick up our morning drinks. We will meet my sons for…
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Day 519
We are out and about early and I wanted to leave a placeholder in case I forgot. I cheated way too much yesterday and I paid for it. Will do better. — It is now late afternoon and two of our three social engagements are behind us, with one more to go. All of them…
Losing a part of me 